*sigh*

The month from hell is almost over.

I feel like I can breathe again.

Had the company golf tournament yesterday. Been having nightmares about this thing for a week now. Couldn't sleep - stress levels have been high.

Woke up at 3:45 am yesterday. Couldn't get back to sleep - was too worried that I had forgotten the draw box at the office (I know how stupid that sounds). Didn't matter - was scheduled to wake up at 4:45 am anyway.

Snapped at many people yesterday. Was so tired that only realized that I had snapped after a very long delay. Needless to say - apologized to many people for snapping.

Will get final feedback on Monday. If bad - will probably be looking for new job as of Monday.

Was given very nice golf jacket as thank-you. Will have to take up golf.

Also got very nice Poker set. Will have to take up Poker.

Stress level has not returned to normal levels. Drank much when returned from Kananaskis. Called mother and blabbed about random and totally forgotten (by now) issues. Promptly fell asleep while on phone.

Was woken up by rude neighbour who was shouting at 6 am. Wanted to scream profanities out bedroom window to shut neighbour's trap. Couldn't be bothered to look for clothes. Lay in bed yelling profanities in my head.